I hate how time flies so fast i just miss my babe, I miss all the things that we used to do cuddling every night, watching movies before going to bed, talk about weird stories, and most especiallystare at him till i fall asleep. Its hard for me to pretend that im not sad and im okay but the truth is i am not, being in this relationship its likeLong Distance, im waiting for the next day to see him again we are happy not until that day happened, i was so happy when he showed me his surprise but the night after that everything turn out to be a sadness, tears are falling from my eyes wondering and thinking whats happening? I couldnt imagine every word that im hearing is coming out from you i couldnt say anything coz i have my respect for you i couldntdefend myself i couldnt say or open my mouth its alll tears coming down from my eyes, tears of pain and sadness , i decided to leave for you to cool down and hoping that everything will be okay, i am not asking people to like me i just want all the sincerity and happiness in my life, its hard to forget everything that happened because its still fresh, knowing that its only a small issue and you made it a big deal, i almost gave up and not care but this its all about my feelings and emotions, and i just realized i am really gettingHURT.
Its hard to give your trust to someone and you’ll find out everything that you shared and give to someone that you treat as your family will soon go away, for me to find out everything it hurts so bad, i gaveevery joy and shared all my problems to that person will just vanished away, It hurts because until now i never said anything, even defending my side but i still respect you as a person.
I guess this is really love, even if your getting stepped on by someone you still have to get up and fightand be strong, be happy and be glad because you know to yourself that you already gave everything for that person to make it work out.
I dont see myself being okay with you, or be a person that i used to be because you changed me, i already gave my respect and my silence for not saying anything or defending my side, for almost 1 month now its my turn and even if you read this dont comment, coz everything is done, everyone has their own emotions and this is how i feel i am HURT but i know i am strong, and its because of drew and my family and most especially to GOD for giving me all this trials , sacrifices and pain that i know i can get over with, i’ll moved on and start a new life.
And to you, thank you for making me a better person, i learned so much things from you , from this :) every thing that happened will now be forgotten, i never regret anything for me to be part of your familyits a roller coaster ride, its full of happiness, drama , sadness and love, but i know this has to end soon. I am sorry for everything that i did, sorry if your expecting that i will be perfect for your son but i am not, im sorry for all the things that i couldnt do because of the lazyness im sorry because i couldnt give all my best to show you, but GOD knows that i did love your family as much as i love my family.
Thank you and Goodbye