♥Luvindsunshine

I hate how time flies so fast i just miss my babe, I miss all the things that we used to do cuddling every night, watching movies before going to bed, talk about weird stories, and most especiallystare at him till i fall asleep. Its hard for me to pretend that im not sad and im okay but the truth is i am not, being in this relationship its likeLong Distance, im waiting for the next day to see him again we are happy not until that day happened, i was so happy when he showed me his surprise but the night after that everything turn out to be a sadness, tears are falling from my eyes wondering and thinking whats happening? I couldnt imagine every word that im hearing is coming out from you i couldnt say anything coz i have my respect for you i couldntdefend myself i couldnt say or open my mouth its alll tears coming down from my eyes, tears of pain and sadness , i decided to leave for you to cool down and hoping that everything will be okay, i am not asking people to like me i just want all the sincerity and happiness in my life, its hard to forget everything that happened because its still fresh, knowing that its only a small issue and you made it a big deal, i almost gave up and not care but this its all about my feelings and emotions, and i just realized i am really gettingHURT.

Its hard to give your trust to someone and you’ll find out everything that you shared and give to someone that you treat as your family will soon go away, for me to find out everything it hurts so bad, i gaveevery joy and shared all my problems to that person will just vanished away, It hurts because until now i never said anything, even defending my side but i still respect you as a person.

I guess this is really love, even if your getting stepped on by someone you still have to get up and fightand be strong, be happy and be glad because you know to yourself that you already gave everything for that person to make it work out.

I dont see myself being okay with you, or be a person that i used to be because you changed me, i already gave my respect and my silence for not saying anything or defending my side, for almost 1 month now its my turn and even if you read this dont comment, coz everything is done, everyone has their own emotions and this is how i feel i am HURT but i know i am strong, and its because of drew and my family and most especially to GOD for giving me all this trials , sacrifices and pain that i know i can get over with, i’ll moved on and start a new life.

And to you, thank you for making me a better person, i learned so much things from you , from this :) every thing that happened will now be forgotten, i never regret anything for me to be part of your familyits a roller coaster ride, its full of happiness, drama , sadness and love, but i know this has to end soon. I am sorry for everything that i did, sorry if your expecting that i will be perfect for your son but i am not, im sorry for all the things that i couldnt do because of the lazyness im sorry because i couldnt give all my best to show you, but GOD knows that i did love your family as much as i love my family.

Thank you and Goodbye  

I dont know who else to talk to about all the pain that i have inside , there’s nobody who wanted to listen to me, I’m so depressed sometimes i just feel like giving up and just start a new life again but i can’t i guess its because i love him so much, but im gettin hurt already i wanted to be okay just like how i am before but this is more worst than what i felt before.

I thought i’ll be happy , and everything’s okay but i am not
I just wanted to get out of this pain and feel numb 

Akala ko magiging happy ako kasi i find true love 
but i can’t di ko alam kung san ko ilalagay yung sarili ko 
nasasaktan ako kasi im too inlove di ko na iniisip yung sarili ko 

Ginagawa ko naman lahat para sayo lahat na nga ng pagmamahal binigay ko pero kung makapagsalita ka sa akin sobra ka na! Minsan try mo ding makiramdam kung paano masabihan ng masasakit na salita. Shit hirap ng ganito alam ko nagusap na tayo pero di ko alam mix emotions na ako, sana wag lang ako dumating sa punto na “tama na rita di mo na kaya”.. sana lang.

Masakit pala yung nasasaktan ka ng nangagaling mismo sa taong mahal mo yung mga salitang ayaw mong marinig kailangan niyang ipadama sayo pero hindi niya naiisip kung gaano kasakit para sayo yung mga salitang binibitawan niya kasi nga nabigla lang siya pagtapos babawiin niya ng salitang SORRY kahit nasaktan ka kailangan mo nalang tanggapin mahal mo kasi at ayaw mong mawala siya sayo pero hanggang saan na lang ba, hanggang saan ang kaya mong tiisin para sa taong mahal mo sa kabila ng mga sakit na nararamdan mo :’(

Siguro may mga bagay na kailangan makasanayan na yung tipong kahit nasasaktan ka, hala sige kailangan maging matatag ka lang kasi mahal mo yung tao eh! Pero paano kung sobra na hanggang saan na lang ang kaya mo? Ako kasi kaya mong magtiis para sa taong mahal ko para maging maayos kami pero hindi mo pa rin masabi kung hanggang saan lang ang pwedeng itagal ng relasyon niyo lalo na pag nagkakalabuan na at nagkakasawaan na pero paano mo nga naman masasabi kung yung taong mahal mo ay nagsasawa na sayo o hindi ka na mahal.

Pero kung ako sayo kung hindi mo na kaya pwede ka namang humindi at sabihin mong hindi mo na kaya kasi hindi habang buhay magiging ganyan ka masasaktan ka at papayag kang apihin nalang ng ibang tao , kung hindi mo na kaya at ayaw mo na pwede mo namang sabihin at pwede mo namang bitawan yun nga lang kung kaya mo dahil siyempre mahal mo nga yung tao eh.

Nasasaktan nanaman ako kahit hindi kasi nga dapat kong magtiis kasi nga mahal ko siya , pero hindi ko alam :( 

Ininvite invite ka sa wedding pagtapos sasabihin sayong DI KA NA INVITED ka gago mo dre =))

Kamusta naman yung binili ko sa ALDO , lipstick from BOBBIE BROWN , at yung dress at wedge ko 

san ko isusuot yun? 

PUTANGINA LANG.

Paano ko ba ilulugar yung sarili ko sayo? Bakit parang lumalayo yung loob mo? 

Wag mo naman akong ganituhin kasi nahihirapan ako :( lalo na ngayon na may

nararamdaman ako kailangan ko ng suporta mo, hindi ko kailangan ng kahit anong

sakit at kahit na anong mga salitang hindi karapat-dapat ang kailangan ko lang ay

IKAW. 

Gusto ko lang naman yung dati kung paano tayo nagsimula at paano mo ko minahal.

:’(

Minsan lang dumating sa buhay natin yung taong magseseryoso sayo, yung taong mamahalin ka at ibibigay sayo lahat ng pagmamahal na kailangan mo. Pero Paano pag may nagbago? Paano pag nagkulang? Masasabi mo pa bang siya ang taong para sayo?  

Siguro minsan may mga bagay na dapat intindihin nalang, alam mo yung feeling na may gusto kang sabihin at iparating pero wag na lang kasi nga natatakot kang baka sa isang iglap bawat salita na sasabihin mo ay may masasaktan pero ang hindi nila alam mismong ikaw ay nasasaktan na kasi kahit gaano mo gusto sabihin sa kanila yung ayaw mo ay hindi mo masabi kasi nga NATATAKOT KANG MAGBAGO SIYA.